Blackouts

Well most of the time my mind is hung as if I have Windows XP as my operating system. Actually most of the time the thoughts that wander through my mind are rather nothing. ZILCH!!. Let me try to understand this .Most of the times I can’t think or recollect what I have been thinking about, the previous moment. I don’t know what I have been thinking, why I have been thinking what I have been thinking and I haven’t actually figured out how not to think what I think or what I rather don’t!! Whof I am getting confused

I realize that I have done a bad job of actually describing what the real problem is. But that is somewhat the whole crux of the problem. Actually whenever I want to synergize my thoughts I find the task unmanageable. I find it really difficult to crystallize my thoughts into a something like of an epitaxially grown thin film in one particular direction. And this some what hampers my ability logically construct any argument. A rather distinct lack of alertness at almost any point of time, It has led me to many a blunders and embarrassing situations. Yeah thats pretty much it. It’s a kind of lethargy, an inactiveness that breeds through my mind, body and soul because I keep on having thoughts which I really shouldn't have.

Now this whole description is a big mess!!! But still I feel that I have begun to understand what actually the problem is!! I don’t think I can really remedy it but still begin to remove it .How? I donno may be I figure it out when I get up tomorrow

Last thought: Alleluia!! I eventually Blogged